If I have a universal remote? Hmmmm... Somehow, everyone would dream to take control of his/her life and navigate it towards the best possible thing to happen, given a chance. Well, I promise I won’t abuse the use of it, but maybe just maybe I know I could be tempted but I can manage to take control and live my life, with or without it.
I bet I would go back in time, reminisce memories, examine myself, observe the things I’ve done in the past, study how I end up being myself coz’ there are things I would like to remember over and over again and some, that I regret. We can all go back to the past since we got memories but its different when you get see it right in front of your face, from a different perspective. Let’s face it there are things we buried deep down inside our head so that we could forget. Although, I can’t change a thing about it at that exact moment, it’s always nice to look back every once in a while.
I would use a couple of pause to freeze time. One of the most impossible things in life is to stop time. You know when things get to crunch time, you got a lot of things to do and somehow it just won’t fit in your schedule no matter how much you plan for things and those moments where you just really like for the world to stop turning, for a second. I know it is my responsibility to manage my time but honestly, if I have that “pause function” I would have used it a number of times in my favor in a good way and not abusive. I knew I would.
Lastly, if fast-forwarding means I get to see the future but could never regain the past and what I had missed then I’d never click that button. As much as I want to see what the future holds, I believe the journey is more worth it than the destination cause whatever part I take is what determines where I go.
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Its been three years since then...
"Make a decision and never regret. Never look back because you're supposed to be happy". But what if I told you, I wasn't? What if I said, I looked back into the past and regretted? What if, after all this time, nearly every single decision I made, was actually hurting and pushing away a guy that I love now? I pushed him away back then, thinking it was for the best. I desperately pranced away from his attempts to gain my attention, and I did what I thought was the best solution, that being to shove him to someone I thought could protect him. In the end, by doing this, it tore what we had apart. I became cold. We became cold. I hated him. He hated me. He stopped calling, I stopped calling. It just led to a chain of events that I never thought would happen; he left me. At first, I thought I believed it to be nothing, just a mere wound that would heal. But as time passed, and the wound was no where near healing, I started to doubt myself. Though I was with someone then, I couldn't do anything but watch, watch him being with someone I hated. I disliked what I saw and I had no idea why. I just thought it wrong. It was times such as this that made me think back to what a friend I once held dear told me, "Just follow what your heart tells you. Once you do, don't look back. Be happy with the choice you made". Dear God. How I believed Him so. But this was not the case. He was wrong, oh so wrong. I finally realized why I had such pathetic and jealous thoughts of him. It came out of the blue one day, and it hit me so hard, I was left standing dazed in the middle of the street;
Maybe, just maybe, I had deep, emotional feelings for this guy.
This thought stopped me from sleeping at night. This idea stopped me from thinking straight, because the moment this settled into me, I realized, how large a mistake I had made. I pushed away a person I loved unintentionally. I admit, I was sad. Unhappy. I pitied myself, because I believed I could never see him again, never talk to him again and never hear him again. I wanted to go back to him, tell her how I felt for him, but I couldn't. He still had a girlfriend, a girlfriend from what I could tell and observe, was hurting him. They split up soon afterwards. I tried to stop myself from getting close to him again, but I couldn't help myself. I approached him slowly and asked if we could go back the way we were and be friends. The conversation escalated, and soon he was asking why I was telling him, making me tell him the reason. I guess he saw through me, because soon enough, he was hinting whether or not I had feelings for him. I tried to say no, but alas, I remembered my sins of the past and I just answered; "Yeah. I like you more than you'll ever know".
God. I've had enough regretting about my choices within the past, and I won't make the same mistakes again because you just won't know what you've lost till it's all gone away.
It took me awhile to get over this phrase! I guess it affects me as much as how the character of Emily Deschanel, Dr. Temperance Brennan, felt. You wouldn't understand me unless you watch the show and unless you know me better!
Just a realization...
-ArjHaine07-